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Earliest Memory: First Step To Change

About 15 years ago, there lived a small girl with big imagination. Her best friends were Sasha from the apartment bellow, her family and TV that she couldn’t stop watching.

She was scared of many things. She couldn’t find the courage to ride a bike, to sing a song or to even eat a boul of soup! [In fact, even butterflies scared her] In school, she was the most unorganised student her teacher ever seen. [Once, she even forgot her school backpack!]

And that girl didn’t like her mother. One day the girl said to her best friend Sasha: ‘My mom is like a chicken – makes a lot of noise but is very silly.’, feeling justice in what she said. Sasha however, didn’t know that girls mother was walking her home from school last night. What happened last night changed that little girl completely. That evening, leaves were dancing around, coloured in golden stripes of lurking in between flats sunset. That day the girl was happy – she was jumping and singing around. She liked to pretend to be her favourite cartoon character and make up epic adventures on the go. Suddenly, girls hand felt numb, as her eyes gazed upon an annoyed mother. ‘Stop it! Why can’t you be like everyone else!’ her mother shouted. The girl calmed down…

It was me with untamable imagination and crazy energy when I was little. That one phrase put a stamp on my personality for the rest of my childhood. I calmed down, trying very hard to ‘normalise’ myself. My moto was ‘I want to be like everyone else!’. But even then I knew that it was unfair.

For some time now I have dedicated myself to stop this scar from affecting any more of my life. It started when I let go of that memory, and forgiven my mother for whatever made her said that [it is very important to forgive your family members because they are the closest people in your life] and forgiven myself for not taking action earlier.

I started my journey because I believe I have the responsibility and independence to be the very different and weird person I was born to be. And today I invite you on the journey of self discovery, personal development and epic adventures!

We deserve this.

By Jevgenija Zukova

I'm a second year university student doing Accounting and Finance course. I stand together with other female entrepreneurs to bring sensitivity into the business world, fun of art and creativity into local communities, and awareness of highly sensitive people.

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